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I've been putting this off all week... First, what happened with Yukidarumon... and then Ikuto... and while all that's going on, the invasion in Tetha... I didn't want to go into this while there are things happening all around us to those we care about. I didn't want to think my problems were somehow more important than all of that, but... I'm seeing, no matter what happens, there'll always be something. And the more and more I continue to put this off, the more and more we're all just going to keep hurting one another.
I've really been too indecisive, this whole time. I was ... mad at you, at first, when you suggested what you did when Yuma first arrived here. But, I never did anything to fight it. I truly, honestly didn't know WHAT to think...
I do mean what I said. I may seem stupid, it may seem irrational... and I'm one of the most awfully selfish people in the world for beileving I can think this way, but I love you. I love her.
Keeping things the way they are now, though... We're all separated. None of us can be together. None of us can be happy. All of us are just going to continue like this in an endless cycle, over and over again...
Unless I actually make a choice.
Manami, I believe in you, and have all the faith in the faith in the world in what you can do. You're strong, and brave... And... You've done so much for me, and it all means so much. Every happy memory we've had and shared is something I want to cherish forever...
But...
Yuma... is not that strong. She's been hurt in so many horrible ways, literally destroyed. And she's had herself isolated, locked herself away from the world, in large part because of my own stupidity...
She needs somebody, and... I'm going to be that person.
I am so sorry for just not being able to come out and do this before. If I had done it earlier, then maybe it wouldn't have been as hard as it is now, but...
I love you, Manami. I'll understand, though, if you never want to speak with me after this. I know, though, you'll be fine, in the end, because like I said... I have faith in your strength.
I know I'm being a coward by not telling you this in person, but if I didn't come and just get this out, if I tried to do this face to face... I'm not sure I'd be strong enough to do it. Looking at you, if I were to see you upset, I don't think I could be truly honest.
I don't want to lose you, Manami, but... This is something that I have to do. I hope one day, at least... you can still be my friend...
I'm sorry.
Good bye, Manami.
[ooc - And yes, Sayu is QUITE unaware that Manami was injured at all during the scuffle in Tetha.]
I've been putting this off all week... First, what happened with Yukidarumon... and then Ikuto... and while all that's going on, the invasion in Tetha... I didn't want to go into this while there are things happening all around us to those we care about. I didn't want to think my problems were somehow more important than all of that, but... I'm seeing, no matter what happens, there'll always be something. And the more and more I continue to put this off, the more and more we're all just going to keep hurting one another.
I've really been too indecisive, this whole time. I was ... mad at you, at first, when you suggested what you did when Yuma first arrived here. But, I never did anything to fight it. I truly, honestly didn't know WHAT to think...
I do mean what I said. I may seem stupid, it may seem irrational... and I'm one of the most awfully selfish people in the world for beileving I can think this way, but I love you. I love her.
Keeping things the way they are now, though... We're all separated. None of us can be together. None of us can be happy. All of us are just going to continue like this in an endless cycle, over and over again...
Unless I actually make a choice.
Manami, I believe in you, and have all the faith in the faith in the world in what you can do. You're strong, and brave... And... You've done so much for me, and it all means so much. Every happy memory we've had and shared is something I want to cherish forever...
But...
Yuma... is not that strong. She's been hurt in so many horrible ways, literally destroyed. And she's had herself isolated, locked herself away from the world, in large part because of my own stupidity...
She needs somebody, and... I'm going to be that person.
I am so sorry for just not being able to come out and do this before. If I had done it earlier, then maybe it wouldn't have been as hard as it is now, but...
I love you, Manami. I'll understand, though, if you never want to speak with me after this. I know, though, you'll be fine, in the end, because like I said... I have faith in your strength.
I know I'm being a coward by not telling you this in person, but if I didn't come and just get this out, if I tried to do this face to face... I'm not sure I'd be strong enough to do it. Looking at you, if I were to see you upset, I don't think I could be truly honest.
I don't want to lose you, Manami, but... This is something that I have to do. I hope one day, at least... you can still be my friend...
I'm sorry.
Good bye, Manami.
[ooc - And yes, Sayu is QUITE unaware that Manami was injured at all during the scuffle in Tetha.]
